Reflections of 34
34 has been one of my most challenging years. I plastered a smile on my face most days but there was shit going on behind that beautiful smile. It was pruning season for me. God was ridding me of branches (people and things) that weren’t producing fruit. Anyone who knows me knows I can be stubborn, flexible but stubborn. I was fighting tooth and nail to hold on to people and things that were serving me no purpose.
I needed a mindset change. I began paying attention to everything and everyone that was getting my time. It was a confusing time. I started reading and getting a better understanding of me. Essentially, I wasn’t being true to myself by holding on to the non producing branches. I did me and let everybody & everything be. It wasn’t easy. Not for me anyway. It’s still not easy but I choose me everyday. My peace. My happiness. I’m choosing. Me.
It still hasn’t been a walk in the park. My relationships & friendships are not the same. I’m not a loner by any means but I spend more time with me like I used to do. It’s liberating. I’m loving the me time and all the time I have to self reflect. So, life is good. But you know there’s always something lurking in the background.
These last couple of months have been filled with anxiety, health issues, and just a lot of emotions. As things seem to calm down, I’m reminded that obedience & faith are key in all situations. I’ve managed to keep both and remain positive. It’s still shit to be worked out BUT my anxiety has subsided a lot. I’m so thankful for the few that checked on me regularly without me having to tell them something was wrong. Thanks for checking on y’all strong friend and sister. ❤️😘
I’m thankful for the pruning season. The last year has been one for the books but I’m optimistic that in my 35th chapter I will produce the fruit God has so graciously pruned me for in my 34th chapter.
Cheers to a tough 34th chapter because I know what I’m made of… Cheers to overflow & abundance in my 35th chapter! *throws confetti*